Back In The Saddle

Well, maybe - maybe not. The last few weeks have been incredibly uncomfortable. I’ve been discontent. I’ve been confused. I’ve been irritable. I’ve been absent from the keyboard and not from a lack of discipline standpoint, but rather a “I’m in a mood” standpoint. I hadn’t felt like writing, so I didn’t.

I don’t feel good or bad about missing the last few weeks. I probably would have had some negative thoughts bouncing around my head years ago about the inconsistency. Today though, I written long enough and consistently enough to know - it’s not about discipline. This absence is merely an absence.

Most mornings writing helps me sort things out in my mind. Most mornings writing helps me commune with my Creator. Most mornings it’s about a bit of quiet time before a hectic day begins. Over the last few weeks though, that time hasn’t been as important. I diverted my mental energy in another direction.

My focus for at least three and possibly as much as six weeks has been launching my newest endeavor. I’d been working towards fulfilling my purpose for several years. My first iteration of my purpose was in 2017, but after a few months this version emerged. It’s remained unchanged, with the exception of two words since that time. I’ve been working towards its fulfillment daily since then. It’s led me to live in two other countries, take on multiple freelance projects, and meet with some great people along the way.

You may not know your purpose. It could be that you haven’t set aside time to discover it yet. If you have, then you’ll understand it’s importance. You’ll understand the sleepless nights. You’ll get it when I say “It’s what I’ve got to do.” For those that get it, you know some things seem like a distraction and must be eliminated. For those that don’t, well - that’s ok too.

So the title of this list is concluded with a question mark. I don’t know if I’ll keep writing in this intiration. I may, I may not, only time will tell.

I’ve reached a point where I know the precise first few steps towards accomplishing my mission. These lists may act as a compliment, they may be a hindrance. Should it be the latter, this is me signing off. If it’s the first, glad you’re along to share this part of my journey.

Today, Tuesday, October 22, 2024, I am grateful that:

I wrote today. In essence, today is all we have. It’s been a rather uncomfortable few weeks. I don’t particularly enjoy transition periods, but I am aware I’m currently in the mist of one.

At some point in the not too distant future, after this transition, I’ll be more akin to the person needed to fulfill my purpose. The road is arduous and unfamiliar, but it’s the path I’m on. I will not relent. I am grateful to have the opportunity.

I’m willing to do what’s needed. I’m finally at the point that I’ve avoided for weeks. I’m willing to seek out and and accept assistance. I’m unable to go much further without assistance. What is required is beyond my means. I will ask for, find, and be grateful for the help I’m about to receive.

Is there something you typically do, that you haven’t done is awhile?

Is there a way to starting doing that thing again?

Will doing that thin

This is the first part of the entry.