Blah Blah Blah

Woke up this morning in a mediocre mood. Not good or bad, just blah. Said my purpose, started the kettle for my coffee, made a few phone calls, and I’m sitting down writing but it’s still blah.

Some days it’s more mundane and routine than anything else. Sometimes it’s about going through the motions even when there seems to be no rhyme or reason for doing what you are doing. That’s the importance of having a ritual. It eliminates, for the most part, my feelings. I do what needs to get done cause it’s part of the ritual, the routine. It’s more biological.

It’s the morning of a new day so I do this. Feelings are irrelevant, my body takes over and completes the ritual.

Today, Wednesday, February 19, 2020, I am grateful that:

I’ve established a ritual that works well. It may stop working at some point but for now it works and I’m happy that it does. Most days aren’t challenging, in fact, I usually look forward to the day with eager anticipation. When days like today arise it’s best for me to have a routine and do the same thing no matter what.

Ronnie is still here. It’s been a laid back couple of days and I feel a bit guilty I have to work. She’s been here, not complaining, affectionate, and cheerful. Finding someone compatible and engaging has been a challenge and I’m happy to have found her.

I remain optimistic despite my current circumstances. My present is a gift but it’s also quite unsettling on the financial front. It’s bleak at the moment but that’s only temporary and this too shall pass.

I’m willing to say what needs to be said, no matter the outcome. Last night I was faced with a situation where a friend was being rather inappropriate and not his normal self. I confronted him regarding his behavior and he was rather upset but eventually calmed himself, admitted his wrongdoing, and offered an apology. Most people wouldn’t say anything, as most present didn’t, but I refuse to accept unacceptable behavior, it’s not in my makeup.

What’s your morning ritual? Is it effect?

How do you start your day?

Do you consistently invest time with your Creator?

Do you stand for something? What?

Do you defend your beliefs, no matter what?