Burning The Boat

Again I’ve reached the point of do I continue or turn around. I’m more than five years into this journey. As I write this recollections of all my challenges surface. It’s been an arduous journey to say the least. Yet, more steps must be taken. This journey isn’t complete, but I want to turn around.

I thought putting myself into a nearly impossible situation would make sense. I moved here and burnt the boat. I bought a one way ticket. I had no intentions of returning to the US. Not a single plan, until after my tasks were completed. More than three years later, my resolve is still being tested.

I want to yield, but I can’t. I want to surrender, to give up and say, “Enough is enough.” I think I will. I’ll quit. I’ll quit taking time to watch TV. I’ll quit playing apps on my phone. I’ll quit procrastinating. I’ll quit all of those things which have become a distraction.

Veronica isn’t here now. She’s not a distraction, but rather my inspiration. Now that I’ve got some time to myself, I’l rekindle my desires. I’ll focus my efforts once more. I’ll do those things which fear, for the most part, have stopped me from doing.

Now, I’ve got to remember the lessons.

Today, Wednesday, April 27, 2022, I am grateful that: