Eliminate To Elevate

For the first time in a long time, I struggled with what to write about. Then I thought briefly about what’s been going on over the last week, then the last year or so. It’s still early and I’m going on about four hours of sleep, but I’m on the cusp of a decision. I will answer the call or return a message, but I’m not calling or messaging anyone for a while. I’m thinking now as I write it’ll be the end of March.

Maybe I just made a decision and I’ll revisit it as the day progresses, but that seems about right for the moment. I’m a social person, when I choose to be that way. Right now though, having relapsed to a point from six years ago, I’m not social in the least. In fact, if given a choice, I’d only leave my condo to buy food and water. I’m tired of talking to people. I’m not wanting to even be cordial. I simply want to create. I want to go about completing those things that keep me awake at night. Those tasks that even though they’re all less than a year old, seem as if they won’t go away. I’ve become obsessed with a couple of things and those require my focus and undivided attention.

I’ve been in similar spots before. I’ve had to shut the outside world off. No phone, no watching TV or surfing the internet, only the task at hand, until its completed. Eliminating devices is an exercise is self discipline and I suppose the same is true for people.

The last year of recovery laid the groundwork for what’s upcoming. It would be easy to say “I got this” and let’s get going. Today, the easy route isn’t always the best route. I’ve noticed that my interactions with people have truly changed since the accident. Some I strive to be around and enjoy their companionship. Others, unlike before, I tend to shy away from. A very small number actually reach out and check in on me and my well being. Most are like everyone else, too busy living their own lives to be too concerned with mine. The last year or so has made it abundantly clear that I must eliminate to elevate.

I must not invest my resources in people, places, and things that don’t provide a nearly infinite return. I have done that for decades and it’s okay, until it’s not. Today, it’s not okay. Today, I have less days remaining on the planet than I ever had. Today, I have fewer days remaining to fulfill my purpose. Today is the first, last, and only time this day will exist. I must maximize it and myself. There’s a formula to calculate our return on investment. In the simplest of terms though, the highest possible return is small input, little to no risk, and infinite or almost infinite returns. Since I’m at an age and a stage when I’m aware of my mortality, I am choosing to only invest in those products, services, people, and other areas that offer the lowest risk and nearly infinite return. I can’t buy time and that’s what I risk by not eliminating distractions.

People tend to think through their own lens and I’m no different. This is my current lens. It may serve me well or it could be the beginning of a tumultuous downfall wrought with a bounty of negativity that rivals most in human history. Either way, I’m moving forward.

The circle, my circle is small and it wil

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