I’ll Sleep When I’m Dead

The movie title escapes me at the moment, but the sentiment is true. At some point, doing some particular thing, you may have to lose some sleep. I’m experiencing that this very day. Difficult to rest peacefully and up before the alarm, these patterns accompany my mission. I’m not sure where you are on your journey, but this is a familiar piece of the road. I’ve lost sleep studying for my insurance exam, securities license exams, practicing a presentation, memorizing a script, and many others. This time it accompanies assemblage of a course. This course is a distilled amalgamation of my experiences from the past six or seven years. It contains the key principles and values needed to live not just exist.

There’s a stark contrast between the first 40 old yars of my life and the last five or six. First and foremost is direction. I’ve bounced form job to job, career to career, most of the time quite effortlessly. I’ve had more careers than most people have jobs. There are some benefits, but there’s also some consequences. Two sides to every coin comes to mind since I’ve done only one thing since I discovered my purpose. Living and working towards fulfilling my most high mission has been an experience I would not want to miss. Ups, downs, and all the in-betweens have come during the last few years.

Here’s a snippet of my journey. I left America and lived in Brazil for 72 days. While in Rio de Janeiro, I wrote the first draft of my first novel. Left Brazil and came back to America and got a chance to be a Disaster Inspector assessing the damages caused by two separate hurricanes. Afterwards, I was able to work as a loan official and help those affected by the hurricanes receive financial assistance. Afterwards, appraised my situation and determined I needed a new team to help build out my publishing company. Hopped on a plane and went to Manila in the Philippines. Hit the fast forward button five years and I’m still here.

Life happens. None of what I was initially part of my plan. Plans change and so do people. Ten years ago, I would never have thought of changing my name. Today, my birth name is not how I introduce myself. The only reason I continue to acknowledge that name is I’m unable to do an official name change at the consulate. I’ll hop on another plane and get that among other things done when I return to the states.

There have been high and low points. Moments I would have like to never end and moments I could wait to be over. Yet, through it all, I remain. That’s the reason for creating the course. My experience has been different from most. The code by which I live is a set of rules and principles established before my birth. I have lived by those rules. I’ve also forgotten those rules. I’ve reaped the benefits and suffered the consequences of both. I’ve rested peacefully and at other times like this morning I tell myself, “I’ll sleep when I’m dead.”

Today, Thursday, May 9, 2024, I am grateful that:

Only the audio of my course is missing. I’ll be in the recording studio in the morning and it’ll be finished then. Thought it would be finished in a couple days, but somethings take a bit longer than expected.

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