No More Concessions
For the majority of my life, I’ve adjusted well. I’ve settled into my surroundings and made due with what was available. It’s been an existence, but not really a living. I’ve made a decision to no longer live that way. I refuse to behave in accordance with my current state. I am, and have always been, better than where I currently am.
Mediocrity, fitting in, and existing in my comfort zone seem to be the bane of my existence. I didn’t put my life, because although I’ve had some great successes, I believe and know what I’ve done isn’t in the vicinity of my talent. I may seem delusional. I could be, but I am a firm believer of assessing my assets and liabilities. Over the last month or so, I’ve been contemplating about my current situation and I’ve come to the conclusion, that I am where I am because it’s where I’ve chosen to be. Now, I chose differently.
In the span of less than a week, He sent me three confirmed contracts, worth over 40 hours per week. In addition, I declined a fourth contract since I had my plate full already. This happened in the span of less than 48 hours. Today, I also got another contract that I’ll accepts as it’s for less than five hours per week. My Creator does look out for me and my well being. He also provided a driver for me to find another place to live. Sherman and I did that on Saturday. The place my Creator found was ideal. It will provide an atmosphere of isolation, focus, and positivity for this upcoming evolution.
I’m stressed, anxious, and apprehensive. I don’t know how many opportunities remain for me to squander. So, I’ve got to take full advantage of what’s in front of me. And yet, I’ve only logged about two hours of work so far. Distractions, last minute requests, and my inability to say No are the culprit. I MUST become more guarded of my time. I MUST be a sentinel of this asset, for if I am not, others will not value that which I value the most.
Today, Tuesday, July 18, 2023, I am grateful that:
Even after an absence, this still feels natural. I’ve slacked off and taken time from writing, yet, when I resume these lists, it’s as if no time has elapsed. For me, it’s confirmation that the breaks are needed and the writing is as well.
I’ve become more aware of what’s missing in my upcoming course. I have to be a bit more remedial in my approach. I have to offer some insights and start at the very beginning of my journey. If not, I’ll lose students before they are able to benefit.
Sherman is back to normal. He’s a bit older than I and after the day we shared looking for a new dwelling, I was exhausted and in pain. He was as well. We spoke earlier and he’d returned to normal roughly a day after me. That was good news.
Are you willing to be uncomfortable and live?
Do you want to keep being mediocre?
Sit quietly, no phone, no TV, no distractions. Ask yourself, “What’s the one thing I can be doing, that I haven’t been doing?”
Keep asking until you get the answer.
Be Great. Be Grateful!!!