Paralyzing Fear

Thursday night I purchased some pain relievers for a toothache. By Friday afternoon the pain intensified and I went to my local pharmacy to acquire additional meds. My contact at the pharmacy told me I needed to visit the dentist to get what was needed, an antibiotic. Fortunately a dentist office is located a couple of minutes from the pharmacy and my condo.

After my exam and X-ray it’s been determined my tooth needs to be extracted. The point of this post isn’t my current dental needs but rather the reluctance to visit the dentist. The fear regarding dental visits has existed for years and I’ve allowed the fear to dictate my inactions to the point where it’s unhealthy.

Fear can, if allowed, grow in power to disproportionate strength. It did with me regarding the dentist and in other areas. The key, at least yesterday, was pain. With enough pain fear is placed secondary. My desire for relief from the pain arrested any fears of the dentist.

Pain of depleting my prudent reserve has led to implementation of various plans for an income generation. Pain seems, at this point, to have more power than fear. There are other means of motivation. Other emotions powerful enough to invoke action. I’m certain some of those are more beneficial and positive in nature versus pain and the avoidance thereof.

Today, Saturday, November 16, 2019, I am grateful that:

My fever has broken. This morning and most of last night I had a slight fever and mostly laid in bed recuperating.

Moe reached out today. It was cool to have a quick conversation but I wasn’t able to speak long as I still wasn’t feeling well.

I had the resources to pay for the dental visit and whatever procedures were needed. I’ve had times in my past where that wasn’t the case but today I’m not in that situation and I’m grateful.

Be Impactful!