Remaining Resilient

Todai, I’m up, slightly refreshed and more determined than yesterday, this weekend, or last week. I’ve got to get it. Now that I’m certain what “it” is, I\ll map out a plan and get to work. This life has been challenging. The last few months have been particularly tough, but I’m still here. I will continue doing what I was created to do as noone else will fulfill my purpose. Resilient means able to withstand or recover quickly from difficult conditions. I don’t typically have a problem with definitions, but quickly is subjective.

In this moment, two months seems like forever. In the grand scheme of my life, two months is one of 312 parts of my life, as a fraction it’s approximately 0.003 of my entire life so far. That’s if I were to drop dead while writing this. It’s three one thousandths of my life on the planet so far, not a full percentage yet. It’s temporary, short term, and I guess if recovering took another four months or 0.01 of my life so far, it still wouldn’t be a full one percent. A bit of arithmetic is soothing and when I look at the numbers, because I had to use a calculator, it seems so small. Not one percent, not a full percentage. Of the 624 months I’ve been on the planet, I’m talking about two, maybe four or possibly six. So maybe, in terms of life and textbook definitions of quickly, like the dictionary, it’s possible I am resilient by the purest definition of the word.

The point I’m making is life happens. It will become difficult or challenging. Some days will be easier or less challenging than others. Each day is different from the last. No matter the circumstances of the day, you and I must remain resilient. We must! Do not surrender your hope. Do not surrender the possibilities of what’s to come! Do not yield to temporary circumstances. The next day, tomorrow will be different from today. You can live to fight another day, but only if you keep going. I have learned each of my past experiences makes me better equipped for future occurrences. “That which does not kills, make you stronger” comes to mind. I have not stopped yet and I have wanted to. I keep going. Call it idiocy, insanity, or resilience, I do not call about the labels. I care about moving forward no matter the costs. No matter the situation, I will not surrender. No matter the current circumstances, it’s only temporary since every single day is different from the last and unique unto itself.

Today, Monday, April 7, 2024, I am grateful that:

The weekend was restful. I got a chance to formulate a plan for the next few weeks. Things are going to start moving more quickly and I won’t have this idle time like now. I am doing my part to make sure I can maximize my physical and mental health.

There is light at the end of the tunnel and it’s not a locomotive in route to run me over. It seems like that some days, but feelings change and fact do not. The basic math I did earlier remind me that this is only a short in comparison to my entire life. I know from experience this is only temporary.

Jan and I got a chance to talk yesterday. We hadn't spoken in probably a year. It felt good to catch up with and confide in someone that’s known me for such

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