Return to Normalcy

It’s been at least a week since I’ve woken up at this time of morning, ready to write. The thing with independence is sometimes you’re left to sort things out for yourself. With an employer, I simply show up and they tell me what needs to be done. With myself, I have to execute on an existing plan or develop a plan then execute.

I’ve had a plan and I’ve been laxed in its execution but that’s no longer the case. For some reason, completion of my second novel has been challenging. Not so much the writing as the actual “writing.” I haven’t been editing with the same sense of vigor as before, I journaled about the delay previously but I am quite certain I’ve eliminated the reasons with a simple carrot and stick.

There’s a great backpack I want but I will not purchase until the book is completed. Not because I don’t have the money but because I need a sense of achievement and reward for completing the task. I started the edits on Oct. 1, 2018 and today it’s still not completed. Granted is over 50,000 words, closer to 70 but completion should have accomplished long before now. So until the book’s done, the backpack will remain on the store shelves.

Today, Thursday, August 1, 2019, I am grateful that:

I’ve been granted insight on my need for rewards. I have longed for the ability to reward myself for accomplishment of goals and done so with mediocre consistency. It’s nice to be at a place where I’m ok with actual achievements manifesting benefits.

I didn’t purchase the backpack for my birthday. I’d wanted to reward myself and wanted to spend the money, yet turning another year older wasn’t an achievement. Maybe if I were a younger man and still on the endangered species list but at 48, it’s simply a milestone and not an achievement for reward.

I heard from Fred and received an update on several people statesite for whom I truly care about.

Ted is alive and in good spirits. Fred informed me he has Stage 4 Bladder Cancer and has lost about 70 pounds. Fred’s message stated Ted was “optimistic” which is vital. I pray for His will be done in ALL things.

Implement Your Plan. Be Impactful!