Saying Goodbye

For what it’s worth, I’m not one of those people that think and treat animals as if they are people. We had pets during my childhood, dogs and cats, but I have never treated them like they were my kids or something. When I moved into my new place, one of the cats had kittens. The momma cat was killed by a car and left behind two kittens. I basically adopted them and have been feeding and caring for them for at least six months. Last night one was hit by a car. It’s slightly disconcerting.

Saturday I had a conversation with Diana. She reminded me to follow my heart and not my head, to quit overthinking things, and to take action. Sunday I had a similar conversation with Victoria. Disconcerting means to cause one to feel unsettled and that’s what’s happened over this weekend. First Diana then the death of Max and finally Victoria,all three have left me unsettled.

For the majority of Sunday instead of watching television and charging the battery, I worked on my inaugural course. The outline is completed along with five or six of the collateral for nine of the modules. Today I only have to finish the remaining collateral and record the audio. Based on some feedback, I may need to make some changes, but I’ll have a viable product before I go to sleep tonight. In this instance, I followed my heart.

I’m really big and think it’s paramount to look up the definition of words. The have power and if I wield that power carelessly, the consequences are undesirable. While preparing my outline, I came across a synonym personify. Originally used to give human qualities to something not human, it came to mean to embody a quality, concept, ot thing in huma form or with human characteristics. One of the opposites is from a French word meaning to unfasten or to separate, like disconnecting or separating from someone or something emotionally or mentally.

After viewing my accident video footage, I firmly believe I was spared from death. I thought and began using my new moniker and started informing those closest to me to please address me by my new name since the old me died on February the first. I’d begun to dehumanize my old self, but hadn’t fully embraced or personified my new self. That starts today.

I’m saying goodbye to the old version of myself. I’ll embrace being Abe Newmeyer. The man that lives with conviction and moves with intention. Abe moves and acts with clarity of thoughts. Abe is a strategist and lives that way. His plans encompass varying tactics to fulfill his purpose. The old me didn’t do that, but this newest evolution eats, lives, breathes, and sleeps in that manner. Grieving can last a day or a decade and the choice is yours. Abe Newmeyer has finished grieving!

Today, Monday, May 6, 2024, I am grateful that:

My weekend was productive. Most weekends are filled with relaxation. Me, my remote, and the TV get reacquainted. This was a most welcomed departure for the normal.

Working on the course really helped flesh out my thoughts for the book. I’m probably doing them in reverse order but as long as they are both completed, the order of completion is irrelevant.

Even though I didn’t upload any of the content I’d planned to bef

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