Sometimes It’s Just Rough

Yep, that’s abou all I have to say. Sometimes the road is paved with all sorts of obstacles. It’s not as if the universe conspired to plant obstructions in my path, in my opinion, it’s simply part of my journey.

So right a financial inventory reveals I am currently broke. Worse yet, I am in the hole. I have some debts, nothing significant, but when you have no income stream, everything seems significant. Right now I am exploring opportunities to find another position to generate an income. Doesn’t really matter what the position is, it just needs to generate sufficient enough income to support my book and my lifestyle.

I’ve burned the boat. It’s an all attempt to finish the next two books, get them published, marketed successfully, and start my career speaking and delivering a message of hope and possibilities.

Today, Wednesday, February 20, 2019, I am grateful that:

I have a positive attitude. It’s been part of my history to not see the “bright side” of things. My perspective has changed over the years and now I can see that although things are bleak at the moment, it WILL get better. I am destined for a life of superlatives. After all, I am His favorite child.

I long for my routine. I haven’t been in my routine for a about a week and a half. I’ve gotten comfortable, complacent, and lazy. Inititially, I would have said it was because I was sick, and I was. But upon further review, the truth is I haven’t been sick for about a week. I have physically felt better but I hadn’t resumed my routine. I chose not to write. I chose not to document my gratitude. I chose to ignore the things which have helped change my attitude and my perspective. Well, that’s no longer the case. I am resuming my routine. It’s worked and it will continue to work but I have to take action. Not a single person on the planet has more invested in me than me. No one will do the work for me. It can only be done by me and if I choose not to complete the tasks appointed for me, they will go unaccomplished.

I can find comfort in rituals. Yep, writing consistently is comfortable. Having a ritual, a routine provides comfort and solace. It provides a place to escape, to be at one with my Creator. It provides something dialogue with others does not. It provides a sense of fulfillment, of purpose. I am grateful for these emotions and the ability to recall and reinvent myself at will. I am grateful I can tap into something much bigger than myself by simply placing my fingers on a keyboard and put something as simple as words on a screen. Others may not be able to find comfort as I am, but it’s not my responsibility to help them accomplish their purpose. It’s my purpose to accomplish my purpose. To move forward, no matter what. To execute my plan, change the tactics needed to execute my strategy and move. Sometimes, in the moment, my moves may appear lateral, yet given the benefits of time and perspective, I am able to see some moves which seemed lateral were absolutely critical to future possibilities.

Move forward. Be Impactful. Enjoy your day.