Discontent

Defined as dissatisfaction with one’s circumstances discontent is the appropriate word for how I woke up this morning. I don’t like where I am currently. I’ve seemingly been in the same place emotionally and financially for more about two years. Struggling to make ends meet. I’ve been doing what I know how to move forward but with minimal success.

It’s time for something drastic. Something MUST change. I have been taking action but maybe it’s not the right action or maybe not enough. I’m uncertain. I know what my plan is/was and I’ve been executing the plan but I’ve exhausted my resources and reverted to eeking out an existence versus living the life I’d designed. This entire exercise is exhausting and requires more than I knew.

Had I known the type of effort and energy required I would have not embarked on this journey. I would have done what most do and settle. Settle for what others say is the ideal life. Settle for a set salary with annual cost of living increases. Settle for a wife and kids and several hundred thousand dollars of debt. Settle for the image most Americans see as the dream life. But I know different, so I do different.

Today, Wednesday, April 17, 2019, I am grateful that:

I haven’t bought into someone else’s definition of success. My vision of success is derived from within - internal not external motivations.

I am being to see how to manifest my visions. I’ve rarely been able to manifest my visions but since it’s happened before I know it can again and that belief is all I need.

I am at a spot where I’m so discontent with my current existence I’m willing to move in a direction towards something greater. I have settled for mediocrity for long enough and what was once acceptance is no longer. My purpose, my reason for existence is in jeopardy. Should I choose to not move forward with conviction and passion spiritual suicide awaits.

I have an abundance of options. I have plenty. I in currently in possession of everything I need to manifest and fulfill my purpose.

Enjoy your day. Be Impactful.