Doldrum

Feelings of renewed vigor diminished, I’m here once more, a state of stagnation and inactivity. Having been in this state before, I will continue to trudge. I will move forward, one step, one day at a time. I will do what’s in front of me and accomplish the items on my list. It’s a challenging and disparaging state of existence. It’s more than frustrating, it’s a state when if not careful, I could easily drift into depressive thoughts, inactivity, and other detrimental behavior and actions.

With experience as my teacher, I’ll learn from the past, get through this day, and rise to thrive once again. I’m His favorite kid! He’s my champion and I will champion for others.

Today, Tuesday, November 12, 2019, I am grateful that:

I rested well. In the past, restful sleep has been elusive during these times yet I got my 8 hours and more. Not to the point of sloth but close. Maybe 10 hours. I awoke revitalized and refreshed.

I am aware of some changes that needs to be made. I’ll rearrange my morning playlist. It’s lost its luster and no longer changes my heightens my state. That change will occur today as I’ll no longer allow my days to start in this manner.

Some discernment has manifested. I spent years unable to find solutions as I was unaware of the problems. Today, not only is the problem clear but I’m also able to identify multiple solutions as I’ve experienced several of these challenges in my past.

Evelyn and I had a chance to have a conversation regarding a prior incident. We both explained our feelings on the occurrence and have been able to place the incident in the past. I value her and her friendship and as much as I’d like to keep everyone within my sphere, so will not remain. Time will tell about her and her place within said sphere.

Purposefully Trudge. Be Impactful!