Generally Disturbed

I didn’t sleep until about 6:30 a.m. this morning. After a couple of hours of sleep, I’m up and starting my Saturday. I’ve got a general feeling of unrest and slight discomfort.

I reached out to one of my mentors and his input was typical. “Get comfortable being uncomfortable” and “This too shall pass” and more of the same old cliches that offer absolutely no clear cut solutions to my current problems.

The frustrating part of my current state is I have not a single complaint. There exist no feelings of anger or fear or anything else I can pinpoint. That is what’s frustrating. I’ve experienced an abundance of experiences, positive and negative, and I’ve fit myself with a plethora of tools for virtually every instance. Unfortunately I’m unable to deploy any of those implements as I’m unable to target the problem area. I will push forward with reckless abandon of my feelings.

Today, Saturday, November 2, 2019, I am grateful that:

I’ve had an entire week living with a vegan. It’s been an incredibly beneficial experience. From her thought processes pertaining to food selections to experiencing her elation discovering vegan cheese and assorted sundries at the local health food store.

My “all or nothing” personality trait hasn’t manifested with regards to eating vegan. Sarah cautioned me to take my time and make sure that it was something I truly wanted to do continually. I’ve heeded her words and although not entirely vegan, my food intake this week has been substantially better than before meeting her. I believe had she not been my guest her words and actions would not have been as impactful.

Sarah offered her expertise regarding social media, specifically Instagram. Over the past few days, she’s made several posts, updated my profile/bio, and increased my followers. I know the words but not the meaning and as she’s explaining what she’s done, I’m familiar with the words as English but not the context with which she is speaking. I find her trustworthy in that regard and am totally at ease with her and her abilities.

Push Forward. Trust Others. Be Impactful!