Shot of Confidence

In the many years since high school my confidence has increasingly grown. As a youth I typically felt as if I didn’t “measure up.” I usually describe myself as a fat kid, then a fat teenager, and now I’m a fat adult. After a few epiphanies in my late 20s and early 30s I’ve become convinced I told myself a bunch of lies, specifically with regards to my physical attractiveness.

Last night I met a fellow traveller, Dom from Australia. He’ shown interest in seeing parts of Cebu so I acted as tour guide and we headed to IT Park. After a snack at Ambiance, we headed to the Social. While there I approached a couple of gorgeous Korean ladies but they were more interested in going to gamble at a nearby casino. I later approached a couple more travellers, equally gorgeous, and offered drinks. They joined our table and after a bit of chatting we discovered they were both models.

Anna and Paula had been living in Cebu for more than seven months. Swimsuit and fashion models by profession we had an interesting time. As typical when English is a second language parts of our conversation were challenging to comprehend but Anna and I definitely had chemistry. Paula and Dom moved to a separate table and once they rejoined us it didn’t take long for Dom to decide to end his evening. I suppose his travel itenary finally took its toll and I was left with both ladies to entertain. Paula went home and Anna and I decided to visit another night spot.

We only stayed at Icon briefly and soon went our separate ways. Several hours with models can surely provide a shot of confidence when things aren’t going the way I’d hope, as of late.

Today, Saturday, January 4, 2020, I am grateful that:

I was able to reach out to Christian regarding the API doc modification for my publishing company. After I received all the info I didn’t pause or hesitate(part of my history but not my present) I immediately sent out the info needed so he could provide an estimate for his services.

Dom and I stopped at Ambiance first. There I had a chance to see John once more(he’s returning to Australia today) and asked if he’d be my mentor. He agreed and immediately offered advice. He pointed out some simple yet profound strategies for building my company and for retaining control over my enterprise.

Upon John’s utterance of experience I was attentive. I regret not having a pen and paper but I did repeat each of his statements to insure my comprehension.

I met Anna and Paula. It was funny to have them constantly speak of me not drinking alcohol but after a brief explanation, they seemed satisfied until they asked the next time(when drunk, most people repeat themselves). Visiting IT Park has been fruitful. It’s provided a change of pace from the normal spots of foreigners.

I had a chance to see Evelyn. She’d arrived at Icon with several friends while I was outside speaking with Anna. After Anna left, I went back inside and we had a chance to visit briefly. She introduced me to her friends and I departed shortly afterwards.

I received a call from a subcontractor stateside. I’d been working on a position for more than two years and got a call from one of the recruiters last night

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