That’s Embarrassing

It’s embarrassing and makes me ashamed, a little, to admit I’m lazy today. I don’t want to work. I have no desire to make any calls, speak with anyone, less known, compel them to do anything I ask. In fact, I would rather lay down, sleep, and work on recovering from this slight head cold and congestion I have. It would be great to say it’s all about how I physically feel today, but the truth of the matter is, I lack desire.

My purpose is set. My eulogy is written. But, my plan is not. It’s changed so many times in the last 24 to 30 months, it’s confusing and frustrating. I haven’t sat down to quietly contemplate my next steps forward. I’m moving on autopilot. Step one is income generation. Meeting my basic needs is where I currently am. That’s been happening as of late, and I’ve gotten rather content. I’ve not sat down to develop my next steps.

I’m going to have to stop procrastinating. I’ll have to get uncomfortable again. I’ll need to bring in others more qualified to assist. I’ll need to implement those things, document them, and move determinedly through said list. But today, I want to lay down, sleep, and not cough for about an hour or so. Alas, that’s not an option. I’ll pop a cough drop, suppress my feelings and cough since they’re both fleeting, and do the work.

Today, Thursday, December 15, 2022, I am grateful that:

I get to start a new contract today. It was awarded last week, but I wasn’t able to start until now. It’s great to know my skills are in demand and others pay a premium for something I take for granted.

I got to meet a couple of interesting locals today. One works for the local government. He’s been there over twenty years. He introduced me to his wife of more than 25 years. It’s great to meet new people and take an interest in their lives.

My feelings of prejudice from a meeting earlier this week were not false. My newly acquired contact informed me of the meeting procedure and informed me that I’d faced some biases they’d hope to eliminate years before. I’ll meet with his supervisor in the morning to further discuss which further actions are required on my part.

I was able to buy the medication I needed today. Unfortunately, purchasing medication hasn’t always been in my budget. It’s great to not have to stress about buying the necessities of well being.

Can you ignore your feelings of sloth?

Do you ignore them consistently?

What’s one thing you can do today to move forward with fulfilling your purpose?

Be Great. Be Grateful!!!